Thursday, January 19, 2012

Reassurance

     I was always told that college would test my faith. Well now that I am a full time college student (scary!!!) I am facing many obstacles that I have never faced before like packing a lunch, finding a non-awkward time to eat that said lunch, running to back to back classes, dealing with creepy SI's, and going full days. In reference to the Messy Monday's video public schoolers go to school for 8 hours, in the same classroom, with the same teachers, and the same people, and they say home schoolers don't have lives??? Phish, I would give just about anything to go back to only doing school for less than four hours a day. Well anyway getting back on subject; I have been told since pretty much elementary school that college would test me. When I signed up for classes such as sociology and ethics I knew we would be having discussions that would challenge my knowledge and make me ask questions about my beliefs. Well even though today was only the third day of school we have already had several ethical discussions and instead of those debates making me question my beliefs, I have been able to turn to my beliefs to answers those questions. This is such a comfort to me, to have a God that is pretty much the answer to anything. I am definitively interested in further discussions. So far the only thing making me exercise my beliefs are my fellow classmates and professors. I need to work on my patience...
      Well along with my sociology, ethics, and composition classes (the ones I thought I would enjoy the most) I am also taking Anatomy and Physiology and Geology and so far these are the ones that are shocking me the most. In Geology yesterday we began to talk about the universe to just get a general look at planets and stars.  Well ever since seeing stars that had forever changed me this summer (see first blog) they have fascinated me. Well we were shown a size comparison between our Sun, Jupiter, and Earth and well Earth is puny. Just downright teeny. And our Sun, compared to other stars in other galaxies, is small as well. I am one human, living on a small planet, next to a small sun, in a small galaxy, in a sea of galaxies, in a massive universe and the Creator of all of that wants a relationship with me. He cares about me!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HEheh1BH34Q
     And that is not the end of what has truly amazed me. Today in Anatomy Lab we were looking at blood, neurons, and cardiac muscle. Those in themselves were so fascinating and I'm pretty sure my lab partner now totally thinks I am a complete nerd, but oh my stars there was so much detail in something so little. So much care, time, and detail have been put into every part of well EVERYTHING!!! Dude... Dude... Then to top it off my professor begins to talk about how well heart tissue communicates. They have to communicate so fast and so well so they all move the right way at the same exact time about 70+ times a minute. Then she tells us a story about how when she was in grad school they took living heart tissue, not a heart, not a ventricle, heart TISSUE, from a frog (he was basically dead and couldn't feel anything). Well after a few minutes in a petri dish full of saline solution the heart TISSUE began to beat. BY ITSELF. Dude... And when TISSUE from ANOTHER heart from ANOTHER frog was put next to each other the tissue from each heart began to communicate so well with each other that the tissues would begin to beat together. Well pretty much at that point all I could do was sit there. And again the fact that the Creator of all of everything wants a relationship with me.
     Well on the way back to my car I was still so wrapped up in everything I began to think about how lowly I am in comparison to everything and well I kind of felt like Bella from Twilight. Bella has nothing going for her; whiny, annoying, moody, do I need to continue? And yet that chick has two pretty awesome guys after her. Not one, but two! Phish, my guy is a gazillion times better than both of them combined. I am whiny, annoying, moody, bratty, again do I need to continue? And yet I have this amazing God after me! And I'm pretty sure He sparkles : )